I needed this space to write about whatever I want. I feel like my ideas on life are very very different and I need to give them a voice that can be public. If you need to hear what I will say then you will find it becasue that is the way how the world works. I wouldn't say that different people are ousted, they are just different and therefore don't have as much inertia on getting the message out there. Just like one of the most brilliant men alive, Dr. Robert Morse, he just recently started a youtube chanel and he just recently figured out how to download videos faster so he won't be five days behind. that's a great chanel, if you are ever sick, or just feel like crap, or would like to hear about how diseases are cureable since they don't really exist, he's your man! http://www.youtube.com/user/robertmorsend He does get a little heated at times because he is passionate, but it's not the kind of anger that tells my gut that he is hiding something about himself or after something. My gut tells me he is truthful with himself and with us. and is even trying to help. If you get intune with your truth and how it feels in your body it will tell you instantly what is truth for yourself and when you get that heavy feel in your gut or feel like inorder to agree with what you heard you are compromising yourself in anyway..if you feel that heavy negative energy..then there is negativity in or behind the statement. Lemme see. My name is Elizabeth, and I like that name. There are alot of them but it holds its own gurth. the psychic Sylvia Browne says that her name is Elizabeth when she passes over to the "other side". The dimension she says we immediately pass over into when we die. I like to think that there are many Elizabeths walking around in grecian robes and buckets full of blond sparkily ringlettes of hair in other dimensions smiling the most beautiful etheric smiles at everyone, and that I was one of those Elizabeths before I came here, exept my name was something different, something way better. ALmost like the name you'd pick out for yourself in this dimesion after you got fake tits, now that I have fake boobs my name is, "Best Possible Name Ever" with the "Best Possible Life ever". I still think that way sometimes, only when i'm not thinking another way. I don't beleive we go to a certain specific dimension when we die, I'm pretty sure that your etheric body goes to the place that you vibrate to. that's why there's heaven and hell, and if you believe in all the bible people then they will be there waiting for you, just as there is heaven and hell right here on earth, and we create that ourselves. I've had the experience of leaving my body at night and it's such a wierd feeling that I get scared and usually creat a weird trip for myself that involves being scared and then running into all the things I'm scared of, so I'm trying to train myself to be more conscious and aware and to face my fears so I can get over them. really i'm only aware that I've left my body when I am on the way back in but am not all there so I can't move. If you look it up it's called sleep paralysis however most scientists believe this is just being awake and asleep at the same time, where really, I think this article I found here explains the truth i've experienced in this state much better http://www.astralvoyage.com/projection/Catatonic.html This morning I found myself in the catatonic state described and for once I was much more concious of it I could see my room and not move and something was pulling on my feet, which as I feel confident is my astral body trying to leave even though when you first experience it it is terrifying because it feels like someone is in your room pulling your feet and what's worse, since your mind is concentrating on your etheric body where no material exixts your creations from your mind exist instantaniously...so if your scared it's like some flesh eating devil zombie guy with his head split open, and even though you cant move, you can still see through your eyes, you see the flesh eating zombie man. Luckily this morning I remembered to not fear and pay attention, before my eyes there was a news broadcast, something about the millitary and Yoko Ono getting shot, and then a large statium blew up. Then piano music tuned into my ears like a radio station and I was conscious enough to know that I was awake and asked that if it were my mother's music from another dimension to please give me a sign. That's when my feet were being pulled, and I know if I had let it go it would have been a great astral journey, but that's when fear took hold. I was too scared to leave. I looked at my hand and my fingers were all gooey, they could stretch out like taffy. that's when I decided to focus on coming back to my body, casue this leaving my body thing was too unexpected. I'll be conscious and ready next time. Of course I went to the computer after all this to see if any stadiums blew up today. All I saw was a conspiracy theory that Yoko Ono was in on killing John Lennon, and she has a song "kiss kiss kiss" where if you play it backward she says "I killed John Lennon" and it's weird cause I'd never heard of all this, but then again., Paul Mccartney is alive and well, and not all the news in the astral world is gonna ring true. But it's cool to listen to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6A3i0QwukxA